A bullet train

Have been feeling like a bullet train these few weeks or months...like i'm speeding through life not stopping at stations to refuel and recharge and zooming through life not being able to appreciate my surroundings or what is happening around me. Have been so caught up with mothering and coping with everyday chores and things that i think i've neglected many other parts of life.
Think i need to put on the brakes soon...before i forget where i'm heading to! And to friends whom i've neglected to catch up with...i'm sorry! THAT will have to change...

Marmeeee

Lately (actually about a month ago), Zac has taken a general liking to yelling out for me...be it out of necessity, urgency or just plain boredom. Initially, he couldn't get it right...so i was mama for quite sometime, then one day...it was marmeeee. Sometimes, its so pleasant sounding and sweet, other times i hear his urgency for shouting out marmee, and also there are other times where is plain infuriating, especially when its marmee this and marmee that and only MARMEE!!
But i guess, in his world, i am the only one who qualifies to be his marmeeee!!!

My very curious son...

My son has a few very curious habits that are oh-so-zachary...thought i should write about them so that i can laugh over them when i have trying days with him!
- He has taken to wearing his still-too-big-sandals-which-are-kept-in-his-cupboard-till-he-grows-into-them around the house. Every morning after breakfast, he will ask me to help him put them on. Even though he trips on them frequently, he will still insist that i put them on for him.
- He has an obsession with EGGS! He has learnt that E-G-G starts with the alphabet E, every time he spots a letter E...he shouts out EGGS in glee! And if he so happens to spy some eggs on the dinner table that's all he will have! Same thing with RICE!
- Zac enjoys walking around the house while holding two objects in his hands...and the two objects have to be the same items, for eg, 2 play spoons, 2 play forks, 2 cars, 2 play EGGS, 2 books etc etc. If he can't find something similar for the other hand, he will find something else that comes in a pair!
- He finds it essential to cross his legs when he is seated in the car-seat. If you un-cross them, he will cross them back.
That's the list for now...quite sure it will grow the more he grows! I wonder what goes on in his little mind....

We are expanding...

Just a photo to update on how we look like now! Seeing that i have not blogged for ions! And the reason for not doing so is....YES we are expanding our little clan...no. 2 is on his/her way! Officially passed the 12 week mark, so am sighing a sigh of relief! But the erratic morning sickness and the exhaustion has not let up yet. SIGH
A bit sooner than expected but i guess God feels that its time for Zac to share his mummy and daddy with someone else!
We are both excited and eager to welcome no. 2 into our family but i am still kind of overwhelmed by the prospect of keeping my sanity with 2 kids!! Zac has just turned 18 months so he is at his prime in terms of misbehaving, testing limits, being cheeky and bouncing off the walls with extreme energy at times...so that probably contributes to my apprehensiveness of mothering TWO! But i know with each challenge God's grace is doubled...
Zac, i think, has no idea what's ahead...but when i ask him where the baby is...he now knows that its in mummy's tummy, but quite soon after that he will also point to his tummy, so hmmm...not too sure if he knows what is going on at all.
Exciting times ahead...

Today was one of those days...

....where i feel like running away to a secluded island and screaming my lungs out!!
Zac has been very very temperamental today...very very clingy and just a absolute challenge! He yells and screams every time i leave him and step into the kitchen, actually he really hates it when i have to cook dinners or lunches...he will stand at the gate (a child-proof gate leading to the kitchen) and cry his eyes out. I have tried explaining to him why i have to be in there....doesn't work. I have tried indulging him by playing with him for awhile hoping that he will be satisfied and leave me to cook his meals...it doesn't work. I have tried bringing out my pots and pans to encourage him to imitate me hoping that he will be distracted by that...it works but only for 2 minutes! I have tried ignoring him....but i feel my blood boil with each screaming episode.
Today was extra bad, was already kind of behind in getting dinner started, and i know that i have to get it ready for Zac or he will be really impatient with hunger. SIGH
Days like this that i don't even dare to entertain the idea of having a second one and i really wonder how mothers-of-more-than-one-kid manage???
Days like these really make me feel so helpless...Lord give me the strength and peace of mind.

Something is amiss

Hazy...think that's the word to describe how i'm feeling these days...feel like there is something amiss in my life, and even then i am not too sure if i absolutely feel that way!
I am enjoying being a full time mother to Zac and most days i relish the time spent with him, give and take the terrible moments or days that we have. But when all is quiet (that only occurs during his afternoon nap!) i feel like i am missing something or like there are some parts of my life that has not felt any closure. I feel hazy...
Do i want to take up a part time job? What do i really want to pursue? Maybe i am happy where i am but the world prompts me to think otherwise. Sigh...Eugene thinks that i should take a mini retreat to clear the haze, even when i talk to him about it i am hazy...
Lord...blow a breeze of fresh air to clear the haze.

The 3 boys in the cry-room

The 3 fathers with their sons...went to visit Ben, Eleanor and little Ethan a few weeks back, and it so happened that the 3 fathers were carrying their sons...picture-perfect opportunity.